60 posts in 2 1/2 years.

That’s about 2 posts in one month. If it takes roughly an hour to do a decent post (seriously, that’s how long I stare at the screen to write a decent post), where did the rest of the 21,780 hours of the past months go?

Oh yeah, I remember — work. And before that, school.

Writing is supposed to be one of my escape hobbies. I figured I needed a lot of those considering I haven’t mastered the art of fusing daily tasks and leisure. I didn’t consider in the exhaustion factor. Working/studying the whole day doesn’t leave an ounce of stable mind work to even write. What I end up doing is another 1-2 hour mindless internet session coupled with new episodes of whatever series I’m into at the moment. I’ll pass out on bed and wake up to another task-filled day ahead. The vicious cycle continues.

I really do wish I could find the time and the energy to enjoy life outside work or whatever task I have. Although life’s survival consists of the I-had-to-do’s of the universe but I do believe that sustainance and meaning would come from I-want-slash-like-slash-love-to-do’s.  Loving what you do may not actually be possible for everyone… including me, but striking a balance would also bring that feeling of fulfillment and self-assurance…

… and of course the freedom from stress or any physical  complications.

Miscalculations have brought me to this situation similar to my last undergrad semester.

Work on weekdays and review on the weekends. Rest and other social activities are reduced to a few hours on weeknights and Saturday mornings.

But how am I supposed to squeeze in a little more reading and review after the classes? Argh…..

My schedule is so tight that I often forget that I have other things I want to do/attend (i.e. dinners, vacations, etc.). If some of these hadn’t been scheduled in Eastwood, I wouldn’t not have attended any of them!

*Sigh*

I do hope after all this review, refresher and coaching sessions I have to attend, I pass the ECE Board exam. Although, it wouldn’t have any significant change in my present job, I do want to see my hardwork and pay off and mak my parents proud.

13 days since I graduated…

And it still feels surreal. Probably because my mind is still stuck in April with all the drama saturated in one month. That, and I am feeling nostalgic.

For the record, I am elated that I graduated after all the things I went through for the past five years. It feels alienating though, to not be around with the same people I used to be with. And change can be pretty unfriendly especially if doubts and fears surface once more.

In short, I miss all my college friends… mapa-ESC man o Circuit o DSP… There, I said it.

I tried to pick up my stuff that I left behind in DSP earlier this afternoon… tried being the operative word. No cars at the parking lot and an unlit DSP lab means no people to talk to. I opted to leave my stuff behind thinking I could still have the excuse to just casually walk by EEE whenever I need to. I just hope they haven’t thrown my stuff away.

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